My Struggle With OCD

You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.” 1 John 4:4 (NIV)

It was before a big production in my theater class. I was talking with one of my friends, Alex, while another friend was working on setting up the chairs. Finally, both feeling guilty, we went over to help our friend set up. To our surprise, which we both got a kick out of, he was determined that they be set up a certain way. We both teased him, in a friendly sort of way, but deep down, I knew something.

That I wasn’t all that different.

It probably formed early in my childhood, as I remember lining up crayons by color in elementary school, and to this day, I organize my clothes by color and type (though they don’t stay that way for long!). It also causes me to be prone to anxious thoughts, fearful of drinking out of a cup that isn’t clean, and make sure everything is just right when I leave the house. For instance, a simple thing like “is the blowdryer unplugged?” becomes check-it-two-hundred-times-because-if-it’s-not-the-house-will-burn-up-and-we’ll-be-homeless.

I can’t tell you exactly what the root of this is, or exactly when it showed up, but I can tell you that this is my struggle, as each person battles something. Maybe it’s a physical disability that you battle, like diabetes or having to be in a wheelchair. Perhaps it’s something psychological like my OCD. Maybe it’s an eating disorder, or self harm, or an ongoing situation with bullies and drama.

I don’t know what your situation is. But I do know that you’re strong enough to overcome it! Just as I know that I’m strong enough to manage my OCD, I know that you’re strong enough to deal with whatever your facing.

Philippians 4:13 says “I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.” (NKJV)

You have the strength to eat right…Through Christ who strengthens you.

You have the strength to put down that razor…Through Christ who strengthens you.

You have the strength to keep your head held high when they try to bring you down…Through Christ who strengthens you.

We are warriors, because the one who overcame death lives inside of us, and is “ever present help in times of trouble.” (Psalm 46:1) So put on the full am of God and keep fighting (Ephesians 6:10-11). Even when we don’t feel strong, we have His strength to keep us going.

We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. 

Because nothing that we’re facing is bigger than the God that we serve. ❤️

 

 

Get To Know Me Tag

Hey everyone, I just got tagged by my online buddy Mfon from Dainty M. Thus, I’m going to answer this awesome questionnaire and tag  some people to pass this on to!

So let’s get to it!

Vital Stats

Name: Courtney

Nicknames: None, although one time my theater class decided to create nicknames for each other based on the last letters of our names. Thus, my nickname in that class was temporarily “Ney”

Place of Birth: The East Coasts of America

Firsts

Best Friend: Mikaela. I haven’t seen her in years but I’d love to get back into contact with her!

Award: A participation award in a science fair and some kind of Webkinz trophy (Remember that craze?)

Sport: Basketball

Real Holiday: A beach vacation near home.

Concert: A concert at a local mega church for Steven Curtis Chapman, the Afters, and Josh Wilson. 👏

Favorites

Film: God’s Not Dead, Do You Believe, and Lemonade Mouth

TV Shows: Boy Meets World, Full House, Who’s the Boss, and Friends. (Nineties TV was the best!)

Color: Blue

Song: Right now, I’m really into The One by Brandon Heath and anything by Blanca Callahan, but I’ve also always loved Ready Or Not by Britt Nicole and I’m a huge fan of Fight Song by Rachel Platten.

Restaurant: Chilis. Their fries are amazing!

Books: The SouledOut Sisters by Neta Jackson, The Five People You Meet in Heaven, and The Bailey Flanigan series. For classics, I love the book To Kill A MockingBird (Spoiler-It doesn’t actually have anything to do with mockingbirds).

Currently

Feeling: Half asleep, lol!

Single or Taken: Single

Eating: Nothing at the moment, but I’m going to have breakfast soon!

Wearing: Pajamas.

Watching: The letters show up as I type them (stole this from Katie but I find it very descriptive!😀 *I’m going to use Mfon and Katie’s answer here*

Future

Want Children: Way too far in the future to think about right now, lol!

Want to Get Married: Dito.

Careers in Mind: Writer, lyricist, and educator

Where You Want To Live: My current state, but I want to visit New York one day.

Do You Believe In

God: Absolutely!

Miracles: You bet!

Love At First Sight: Yes in the movies, but no in real life. *Again, taking Mfon’s answer here because I agree with it.*

Ghosts: Spirits, yes. Ghosts, no.

Heaven: Yes!

Hell: Yeah, but because of Jesus we have the opportunity spend eternity in Heaven.

Kissing On The First Date: No.

Yourself: Yes, God’s helping me to become a little more confident each year. 😃

Now for the new nominees!

Fearfully Wonderfully Me

Christian Song Meaning 

Agape Love For You

Aschulting 

Anyone else who reads this and wants to answer it!

The Liebster Award!

Good morning everyone! I hope you’re all having a great Sunday! I have big news to announce…Dainty M nominated me for the Liebster Award! The Liebster Award is an award given out to bloggers as a form of encouragement. It is passed on from blogger to blogger and each person who receives it must answer the nominator’s questions. The rules for it are

  • Post the award to her blog
  • Answer the nominating blogger’s ten question interview
  • Nominate 3-10 other bloggers with fewer than 3,000 followers whom she wants to encourage
  • Create ten questions for the new nominees.

Thus, here are my answers to Dainty M’s questions!

  1. What was your first blog post? (insert the link)

It was called Summer Goals. https://1timothy412girl.wordpress.com/2015/06/13/summer-goals/

In case you’re wondering after you finish reading it, I did eventually get my permit 🙂

2. Describe your happy place

Ok, this might be kind of nerdy, but I really enjoy retreating to my room, turning on the Christmas lights over my bed, and writing. I also love diving into a good book. Currently, I’m reading Above The Line: Take One by Karen Kingsbury for fun and The Outsiders for school. So far both of them are good.

3. What challenges have you faced being a blogger?

I think one of the biggest challenges that any type of writer faces is the challenge to stay true to yourself. There’s always that inner critic who makes you question whether you should be writing about something else, or if anyone else will like the topic you chose to write about. Nonetheless, I firmly believe that it’s important to stay true to yourself, true to your artistic vision, and true to what you believe God is prompting you to write. Another challenge of blogging is time management. Since I’m still in school, I sometimes have the dilemma of coming up with a really great blog post while I still have piles of schoolwork to complete. I think that time management is a key word for the writer.

4. What’s your favorite food?

I know this is seriously unhealthy, but I love cake! I don’t like chocolate, but vanilla cakes are amazing! Especially the icing between the layers! Yeah…I have a bit of a sweet tooth.

5. Who supports your writing the most?

This answer may sound a tad cliche, but I’d have to say my parents. My mom has been helping me improve my writing since I was a little girl and when I published my first book a couple of years back, my dad had me help with yard work to earn money for the expenses. My mom also always reads the books that I’ve written and has recently encouraged me to try sending in articles to magazines to get my name out there. I’m very blessed to have parents who support my writing career.
6. What is your favorite Bible verse?

Hmm, that’s a hard one. Obviously one of my favorites is 1 Timothy 4:12 (Considering that’s the name of my blog!), but I also love Matthew 5:16 and Philipians 4:13. So, I guess I have three favorites. They’re all very inspirational and encourage me to make a difference in the world. 🙂
7. Who is your favorite musician? 

Another hard one…I guess I would have to say Taylor Swift. If you look up some of her old videos on Youtube, you’ll find that she composed many of her songs when she was still a teenager. Some of my favorites songs by her are Change, Mine, Enchanted, and If This Was A Movie, but I like a lot of her songs (Yes, I’m indecisive!).
8. Describe your blog in one word.

Inspirational (I hope!)
9. Apart from writing, what other skills do you have?

Writing is my main passion, but I also love singing and acting. I used to be pretty good at basketball, but I haven’t played in years.
10. Movies or novels?

I honestly love both, but I’m going to have to go with books. I like how with books, you can really get inside of the characters heads and see their emotions. I also find beauty in an eloquently crafted sentence.

Now, to pass on this award, I nominate 

  1. Patty Ayres from 
  2. Grace Torgerson from 
  3. Grace from 
  4. Grace from 0nmytoes
  5. Natalie from summitcitysingle

The new questions are…

  1. What did God teach you in 2015?
  2. What are your goals for 2016?
  3. What is your favorite book (Or series)?
  4. Favorite movie?
  5. Favorite month?
  6. If you could have lunch with anyone, who would it be?
  7. Which person in the Bible do you most relate to?
  8. What is your current favorite song?
  9. What is your biggest dream?
  10. What color best describes your personality and why?