My Struggle With OCD

You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.” 1 John 4:4 (NIV)

It was before a big production in my theater class. I was talking with one of my friends, Alex, while another friend was working on setting up the chairs. Finally, both feeling guilty, we went over to help our friend set up. To our surprise, which we both got a kick out of, he was determined that they be set up a certain way. We both teased him, in a friendly sort of way, but deep down, I knew something.

That I wasn’t all that different.

It probably formed early in my childhood, as I remember lining up crayons by color in elementary school, and to this day, I organize my clothes by color and type (though they don’t stay that way for long!). It also causes me to be prone to anxious thoughts, fearful of drinking out of a cup that isn’t clean, and make sure everything is just right when I leave the house. For instance, a simple thing like “is the blowdryer unplugged?” becomes check-it-two-hundred-times-because-if-it’s-not-the-house-will-burn-up-and-we’ll-be-homeless.

I can’t tell you exactly what the root of this is, or exactly when it showed up, but I can tell you that this is my struggle, as each person battles something. Maybe it’s a physical disability that you battle, like diabetes or having to be in a wheelchair. Perhaps it’s something psychological like my OCD. Maybe it’s an eating disorder, or self harm, or an ongoing situation with bullies and drama.

I don’t know what your situation is. But I do know that you’re strong enough to overcome it! Just as I know that I’m strong enough to manage my OCD, I know that you’re strong enough to deal with whatever your facing.

Philippians 4:13 says “I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.” (NKJV)

You have the strength to eat right…Through Christ who strengthens you.

You have the strength to put down that razor…Through Christ who strengthens you.

You have the strength to keep your head held high when they try to bring you down…Through Christ who strengthens you.

We are warriors, because the one who overcame death lives inside of us, and is “ever present help in times of trouble.” (Psalm 46:1) So put on the full am of God and keep fighting (Ephesians 6:10-11). Even when we don’t feel strong, we have His strength to keep us going.

We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. 

Because nothing that we’re facing is bigger than the God that we serve. ❤️



7 thoughts on “My Struggle With OCD

  1. #TeamOCD haha! 😀 I really like this, particularly because you’re not encouraging us to be boxed by our OCDs or depression (for me) but rather to overcome them by the power of God. Sometimes we just get stuck and accept the struggle as who we are, and don’t bother to change- but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! 😀 Thanks Courtney for this!
    PS: I like the arrangement of clothes by color and type; makes finding stuffs a lot easier!


  2. Thanks! I believe that God has the power to help us overcome anything, if He’s willing. There are some times when He says no (like Paul’s thorn) but I believe that when He says no, He’ll give us strength to endure so it’s not crippling. Nonetheless, I believe that through His strength, He can help us overcome OCD (My struggle) and depression (your struggle). I hope it was an uplifting post! 😃
    P.S: LOL, thanks! Courtesy of my OCD! 😂

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  3. I’ve been using a hashtag on Twitter – #Godisbigger – when talking about my OCD…because He IS bigger, even when the intrusive thoughts are totally overwhelming and the compulsions feel out of control. HE IS BIGGER! 🙂

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