Day 22…My worst habits
- Perfectionism.-I have a horrible tendency to want to make everything that I attempt one-hundred-percent perfect. Whether it’s my writing, my grades, or some other project, I tend to go completely neurotic with trying to achieve the overwhelmingly high standards that I set for myself.
- OCD-I wrote about this struggle here. I’ve gotten better about it, but admittedly, I still struggle with it at times. OCD manifests itself in anxious thoughts, germaphobia, and other forms of obsessive behavior. I suppose you could say this is my “thorn”. Call it an overactive imagination, but oftentimes, my mind tends to jump to unrealistic scenarios, causing me to fear the absolute worst. Paired, with perfectionism, my brain has a tendency to drive itself crazy.
- Being on social media too much-Whenever I’m standing in a store, or just bored, I have a tendency to check my twitter, Instagram, and blog feed to see if there’s anything new or interesting. I’m probably on too much, but when I’m bored, my mind frantically searches for something—anything, to keep myself occupied.
- The tendency to overanalyze everything-This can be good at times, like when I get in a overly philosophical mood, but bad when I’m just trying to exist in the everyday world. What does that mean? Why did they do that? How does this blog post sound? Yeah…the overactive brain. It’s a scary thing y’all.
- Not being organized-I know this sounds contradictory to numbers one and two, but somehow, in the midst of perfectionism and OCD, I completely lack in organization. I go from one extreme to another. When it comes to organization, I’m either “Organize everything by color and alphabetize everything”, or, “I really don’t even care”. There’s no in between.
- The tendency to keep talking about the same thing-Because I hate silence and I’m not great at small talk, I tend to bring up a topic that was already discussed the week before. Grasping at straws for something interesting to talk about, I have a tendency to recycle topics. But what else are you supposed to do when you’re an extravert who slowly dies when discussing the weather?
Honestly, as with every other person in the world, I could probably go on about this. When The Fall happened, not only was sin born, but so was anxiety and a host of vices.
But, there’s good news. Everything we deal with can be turned around as a testimony of God’s faithfulness. We all have a story, and when we’re willing to share how we struggle, God can use the very things that make us feel far a thousand miles from perfection for His glory.
2 Corinthians 12:9 says “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”
We all struggle, and when we share those struggles, authenticity flows out into the world and we become a little more connected as human beings. I’m not ashamed to say what I struggle with if it can help another person. Never be afraid to let God use you in unexpected ways.
Never be afraid to share your story, no matter how crazy and complicated or surprisingly simple it may be.
Your life is something that God can use, if you’re willing to let Him.